Today was one of those days that I knew going into it,
was going to be a “make or break” kind of day!
We had a lot riding on today: We were expecting to hear if my husband was chosento advance to Master Chief. We have been house hunting and put an offer in on a home. We were expecting a response to whether or not they accepted our offer or not by 4pm. I was supposed to be booking our flight to the mainland and buying tickets for Disney, Legoland and booking hotels, rental cars etc—which is in 2 weeks by the way (yes! I’ve procrastinated as long as I possibly could!)
Hmmmm! Today could really go one of two ways!
We could get really good news-he advanced to Master Chief, they accepted our offer on the house and I was able to order our plane tickets problem free!
We could get the news that he didn’t make Master Chief. We could find out we didn’t get the house. I could also have complications booking our tickets.
I usually pride myself on being pretty calm and put together. However, today had me frazzled!
I was on edge ALL DAY! Thank goodness my kids aren’t picky because it was a Lunchables for lunch and hot dogs for dinner kind of day! (they didn’t complain one bit!)
Fast-forward to 6:30pm… after a full day of anxiety levels at 100%, we found out:
- They did NOT accept our offer on the house so we are back to house hunting again.
- Master Chief results were NOT released today as we had thought.
- When I tried to book our flights, I found out our initial flight plan will not work so nothing got booked today.
So, here I sit at the end of the day, reflecting on how terribly wrong today went. Nothing went according to my plan! How did this happen!!?!! It was like the kid’s book “Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day”
But, even as I’m feeling sorry for myself and beyond frustrated, I’m reminded of what my morning devotion was about…
focusing on what we DO have rather than what we DON’T have.
Each time I find myself “freaking out,” I’m trying to remind myself of 3 things to be grateful for. It’s helping me keep it all in perspective. I’m also trying to remember how MY plan isn’t always GOD’S plan. God’s plan is better than anything I had planned. So, moving forward, I’m going to try to take a deep breath and let it go. I need to let Him handle it.
I wasted an entire day worrying…when I didn’t need to!
So, for the rest of the night, I’m going to focus on what I DO have…my sweet kids!I’m going to snuggle them and spend some time playing games instead of dwelling on the less than perfect day I had. But, first…I’m going to pray:
Help me to remember on these “make or break” days that YOU are the one in control. Give me the strength to let go and let YOU take charge. Fill me with peace and reassurance that your plan is better than mine.
Deep breath. A sigh of relief. Moving on!
Tomorrow is a new day! I will try going into it with the perspective I’m ending today with.Not much will change: we will STILL be waiting for Master Chief results to be released. We are still house hunting. I still need to book our flight and arrange our trip… However, I will be getting a “redo” and can go through it all again with a change of attitude. Hopefully, I will be able to look forward to these things rather than be fearful of them going the wrong way!
If you are a prayer, say a prayer for us! Thank you!
Is there something you are struggling to let God take control of in your life?
How do you keep everything under control when things don’t go your way?